Go-Go singer Belinda Carlisle said she finally escaped the “horrible cycle” of drug addiction in 2005, long after she was convinced the drugs were going to kill her.
She had started using cocaine during the group’s rise to success as she struggled with the attributes of stardom and the constant media talk about her appearance.
“I’ve always had that little voice, ‘What are you doing?'” Carlisle told the Guardian in a recent interview. “[W]hen I was introduced to coke, I was like, âOh my God, when I get the money, I’m going to buy a lot of it. And I did. âWhile she said she had aâ good time âat first, she continued,â I had a total blast, but it normally becomes a problem at some point. It was fun until it stopped being fun, and then it turned into a fucking nightmare. She admitted that drugs contributed to the Go-Go split in 1985, saying, “I mean, everyone just got out of their wagon.”
She had managed to stop using drugs several times, but kept coming back to it. âIt was a horrible cycle,â she said. “I was just fed up with the lies and the drama, and I hated myself.” When she decided to skip a recording session in London in 2005, choosing instead to indulge in a coca binge in a hotel room, things got out of hand. “I just knew it was only a matter of time before I died.”
Back home in France, Carlisle managed to regain control of the situation last. âI went out, had a big bottle of wine to celebrate my sobriety, then the next morning I woke up and that was it,â she said. âI was because of the cigarettes, the pills, everything. I just stopped and got help.
As the Go-Goes celebrated their next Rock & Roll Hall of Fame induction, Carlisle reflected on the members’ four-decade relationship, which she admitted remained “tumultuous.” She explained, âThey are not colleagues, they are sisters. I know we all love each other but the dynamics are really complicated. We may have taken the rest of the group for granted; we don’t do it now. Forgiveness is important.
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